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Author and public speaker, Caroline Myss, talks about the fact that we enter this planet whole, perfect, and complete. She ascertains that, upon arrival here on earth, we are "shattered' into pieces. The goal of the earthy journey is to gather the pieces of ourselves and put the proverbial "Humpty Dumpty" back together again. As you engage with another, you may receive a valuable part of yourself that they have been holding for you. Every person you meet may have something to teach you. Each person might bring a piece of your puzzle for integration.
From a very young age I have been RUNNING to try to retrieve the fragments that had been blown all over the place when I was SHATTERED upon my entry into Earth School. I have spent a lifetime gathering the pieces of the Carrie Crane Dickie puzzle from those who have been entrusted with them.
Throughout grade school and high school our family moved. My dad climbed the corporate ladder and we relocated to accommodate his career. It was always a chance to start fresh and leave that young, under developed, awkward Carrie Crane behind. No matter where I went, she followed me. Wherever I was, there she was, and it was painful. Oh, how I wanted her to grow up. All through grade school, middle school, high school and college I struggled with insecurity, anxiety, and low self-esteem.
I got married when I was 28 and thought, “Wow, this is so awesome. Now I can become Mrs. Gordon Dickie, and I can leave Carrie Crane behind. On July 14, 1990 I became Mrs. Carrie Dickie and believed Carrie Crane would be gone forever. I hoped that I could BURY her, and she would be history, and I could start brand new as a wife, mother, successful business builder, and writer. I could build everything on top of Carrie Crane and then she would just go away.
Why did I want to bury her? Why did I want to leave her behind and become someone brand new? I didn’t feel like she was smart enough, big enough (she was really skinny) and I didn’t feel as if she developed fast enough. She was a girl when so many of her friends were becoming women. Carrie Crane wasn’t popular enough or pretty enough. She was pale and too young to wear make-up. Somewhere along the way I completely abandoned her.
I have been trying to bring this website to fruition for years. Today, I am integrating, allowing, and celebrating the little girl that I abandoned all those years ago. I am partnering with little Carrie Crane, who has always been smarter than me, wiser than me, funnier than me, and more confident than me. Today I am incorporating my little girl, the creative one, the fun one; the “live wire.” This girl is the juice! This website is an expression of that special inner child that I tried to ditch a long time ago. I have gone back to resurrect that sweet little girl of mine.
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